Monday, March 29, 2010

Triple Dose

I've been slacking. Seriously bad. My excuse is that I wanted to post pictures of Disneyland but I never get on my blog when I'm on the computer that has my pictures. So maybe next time. For now I'm going to put on here the events of my life.

Disneyland was amazing. I got to spend 5 days with 2 of my favorite people in the world. Away from the drama that I make for myself and just reality really. Disneyland was heaven and joy--mostly because of the people I was with. I will say though that my feet hurt so bad! After three days of zipping around Disneyland and California Adventure I guess it's to be expected.
The second day at Disneyland it rained. But was okay because we have excellent timing and went to eat at the Rainforest Cafe. That was actually a lot of fun. Crazy and not something I would normally do. But really, that was part of the fun. Hmm...I'm trying to think of all the amazingness without going onto every ride we did. Screamin' is ultimately my favorite ride. Poor Toni probably hated me by the end of the trip cause I kept dragging us all back to it.

It attempted rain the last two days at Disneyland but really that was okay because it kept the park less busy. Our last day Toni convinced us to do the Grizzly Bear Rapids and Splash Mountain despite the incumbent weather and I am really glad we did. For one we got fabulous ponchos--I don't think I managed to get a picture. And I'd never been on the Grizzly Rapids--and I always enjoy Splash Mountain. All of it was great though.

Our ride home was fraught with adventure and danger as well. (Okay, I'm being a little dramatic) BUT we did get lost--in industrial L.A. area. It was pretty freaking scary. Seriously it was probably around 9:30 in the morning and even still I locked the doors. Toni was getting sick and I was a jerk and wouldn't even let her out for that. The poor girl, it really seems like I beat up on her a lot that trip. But we did make it home safely and securely and so everything worked out well.

I got sick the day after we got home so that put me out of the game for a couple of days as well. The last couple of weeks I have basically just worked and had my EMT class. And house searching. In which, I must air to all. I was successful. It's great. I'm very excited to move out and to be able to have something my own. I just feel more adult that way. ^ ^ It's a small 2 bedroom modular in the same town but still just away. I also bought a table and chairs for it. I have a marvelous friend who is going to give me her couch and I'll just piece everything together slowly. It's wonderful. I am so blessed with it all.

So that's the news in my life. I will move out conference/easter weekend and hope that all goes well.
Oh and for the heck of it here's my random blogging fun. A triple dose.

Threes

Three things you can’t go without.
-Family
-Scriptures
-Love/Romance
Three celebrity crushes.
-Shia Le Beouf
-Taylor Lautner (even if he is younger)
-Vin Diesel
Three favorite book characters.
-Percy Blakeney (Scarlet Pimpernel)
-Ginny (Only Alien On the Planet)
-Thatcher Wood (Quandaries of a Quirky Romantic—not technically a book, but I’m counting.)
Three favorite things to wear.
-Feminine Blouses
-Green hi-tops
-Super cute jeans (How Valley Girl do I sound saying that)
Three things you want in a relationship.
-Someone I can trust and love
-Someone I can talk with and often to
-Someone who will cuddle me
-(And because three just doesn’t cut it) who has the same faith as I do.
Three pet peeves.
-People who won’t take responsibility for their actions.
-People who have decided they know exactly how I should be living my life—and then proceeding to tell me about it.
-People who disregard your emotions because “it was only to be expected”
Three things you’d do if you weren’t so afraid.
-Ask more questions.
-Talk to people.
-Kiss a stranger.
Three favorite TV shows
-Big Bang Theory
-Bones
-House
Three Things You Want
-A Bed
-A T.V.
-Faith

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Today Is a Gift…That is Why it is Called the Present

So quick update on life. This weekend was ‘His’ homecoming. And it went. He looks good, he sounds great. And it sort of broke my heart to realize that I haven’t made the progress I was hoping to. It’s hard to realize that he really does not want me involved in his life. That he’s going to date, and grow and change and doesn’t want any of that to involve me. I felt almost like I was taking 3 steps back and I’d only taken 2 steps forward. But I’m very grateful that I went. That I won’t have that as a regret. That’s really been the biggest influence in my life lately.
Also on Saturday I spent the entire day with EMT training. It was actually, rather enjoyable. Crazy though. I enjoyed my group. We will definitely be close by the end of class with all the touching and moving we all do. But really, that’s a good thing. And I’m grateful I don’t have personal space issues.

Today Is a Gift…That is Why it is Called the Present

What is the dominant emotions in your life right now?
Anxiety and confusion. Mixed with gratitude and happiness. I sound so ungrateful when I say that I am so confused in my life right now. However, I really have a lot of insecurities and the return of Eric has not really helped them out. In fact probably made them worse. It’s hard because everyone goes on about how he is so great, and still the same kid, etc. etc. and so forth. And it makes me wonder. What makes me so different? How come he can treat everyone else the same but he can’t even keep contact with me? It’s especially hard since I am still in love with the kid—because I’m a masochist. >.<

Who made you feel good this week?
My boss has. He gave me an amazing compliment and let me know that they’re grateful for me to be working here. Larry, from the Radio did as well, by telling my coworker that I brought a cute personality with me to the job announcement. Even if I disagree with him—there is a reason I never wanted to be a Radio personality—he still made me feel good. Most of the boys from my EMT class. They spent half of Saturday telling that they had not problem with me bandaging them or getting up close and personal. My Mom and My other self because they continue to tell me that I am doing good. Even though they are the ones who see me at my weakest the most.

What was the biggest mistake you made this week?
Letting other people get to me. Being acted upon rather than standing alone. So basically being subject to my hormones and emotions—and consequently taking them out on someone else.

What’s the funniest thing that happened to you this week?
Sad to say, I'm really not so sure. I think it was pretty freaking funny when I was doing Patient Assessments on Zachary and he kept making up things and changing them. But now that I reflect, actually the funniest moment this last week is when my puppy Giselle ran into a chair at top speed. Really it shouldn't have been so funny, but I'm a horrible owner and laughed hysterically, seeing this fuzzy poofball running as fast as she could and not watching where she was going. I was told I did that a lot as a little girl.

What are you looking forward to the most?
Disneyland! My chance to escape with two of my favorite people EVER! And to pretend that all my other worries don’t exist.

What makes you the happiest today?
Probably the fact that I’m going to the temple today. It’s just going to be AWESOME!

What is something you want to accomplish this week?
I want to get my car serviced. And also get my EMT homework complete. Pass my test for EMT. And enjoy myself at Disneyland. I also am hoping to be more charitable and less concerned about what others think or expect of me.